Deni Iseli

Highly sensitive as HSP with dissociation Deni Iseli

I was born as a highly sensitive baby. I only knew at the age of 50 years, thanks to the anthroposophic doctor, that I was highly sensitive. When I came to the Netherlands from Indonesia at the age of 4 years, I probably became overloaded by all the stimuli through my more sensitive senses, which led to me unconsciously building up dissociation. During my negative childhood in a family with the presence of the mental illnesses PTSD, (open and hidden) narcissism, codependency, gaslighting (cunning manipulation technique of hidden narcissism) and TPS, the dissociation got stronger, because I did not feel safe, at home with my parents. As HSP, I had never felt comfortable, at home with my parents. Now that I am 63 years old and making progress with my therapy, I realize that during the rest of my life I will have to process my burnout, my dissociation, my hypoglycemia as well as my concentration and memory problems. As HSS, I am curious about the unknown. As a highly sensitive person, like everyone else, I have my strong and less strong sides. I especially focus on my strong sides.